Anesthesia.

♫ Morcheeba - Over and Over

Inspiration is what I am lacking.

I listen to the same old and absolutely fine music, 

however, it feels as if I sucked already all inspiration out of it.

Absence of feelings. Marble.

I need something new.

New.

NEW!

The masses of movies I watched just within a week 

moved me to think for a moment about some vital issues. 

Still, I wholeheartedly numbly miss a smooth easy-goingness in life. 

Levni Yilmaz expresses non-feelings in his Tales of Mere Existence 

similar to mine , especially in this episode.

I'm in no mood to talk about anything. 
I'm not sure  it's because I'm out of words or out of opinions. 
There is only one little problem. If you ever tried to 
shut yourself down like this, you may be familiar with 
the thought of how comforting it is, how peaceful it is 
and how semi-strong you feel because you 
know nothing can touch you. 
However, you may be also familiar with the 
total awareness that it really kind of sucks.

- Levni Yilmaz